D is for Doubt, #AtoZChallenge

I started to think of my posts ahead of time so I wouldn’t fall behind in this challenge or my work, but after the past three days my perspective is already changing. Before yesterday, this post was going to be about how I’m always second-guessing myself, not really knowing if what I’m doing with my life is what I should be doing. Or if the things I’m saying, or the way I present myself is the correct way to be doing things. Don’t get me wrong, those are still true statements, but now my outlook has changed.

I get very stuck in my head. You (my readers) have gotten me unstuck. (Billy Pilgrim, anyone?) Yes, I doubt myself, yes, I contradict myself, yes, I carry my baggage and can’t seem to figure out just how much alone time to give myself. BUT, turns out, so do most of you! And I honestly couldn’t see that before. I just thought there was something wrong with me.

I’m not going to change my theme now, but I might reconsider calling them flaws. I think I may just think of them as unfortunate quirks in human nature. I am beyond thrilled at the people who have connected with me and shared their insights. I’m getting fed life lessons a handful of words at a time and I couldn’t be happier.

So let’s connect!

I often doubt if I’ve chosen the correct career path. Would I have been better off/happier choosing something else? Is it too late to change my path? Would I even want to change? I also doubt my abilities. Am I really a good teacher? Am I really a good musician? Am I actually good at writing? Other people have no problem assuring me and some days it’s not hard to believe. Other days….well I’m sure you know!

What do YOU doubt in your own life?

I’d also be curious to know if there’s anything you’ve never doubted. Please share your life experiences!

 

 

 

As always, thank you for reading my A to Z! Check out last year’s posts if you missed my traveling adventures: D is for Dominican Republic

12 thoughts on “D is for Doubt, #AtoZChallenge

  1. Well you know my doubts pretty well and you know that they are pretty much the same as yours. The one thing I can say I never doubt is using the tools and things I have learned with what I’ve chosen so far. So, while I wonder sometimes “am I on the wrong path?” or “should I do something else?” I know no matter what I will utilize what I’ve learned on my current path no matter where it may lead.

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  2. No doubt you are good at writing! You hit close to home with this topic. I doubt myself ALL the time! In fact, it’s hard for me to come up with anything I’ve never doubted. Well…maybe one…marrying my husband David. He’s amazing! And the fact that he loves me is pretty amazing too!

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  3. Quite an interesting topic! I like your clear, easy-going prose, by the way,

    This might sound a bit strange, but self-doubt doesn’t trouble me. I tend to see it as both an inevitable and overall positive thing because it helps to keep me down to earth, among many other things. The only negative I see in it is how it could make me too hesitant to act when I need to act. But I have learned how to deal with that. When I need to act, I just pick the best option I can see, then do the best I can. The best, of course, is variable.

    Teaching is hard labor and compensated less than it should be, in my opinion. But if you have a love of it, or feel a calling to it, and you can do it reasonably well, then I would think it — or something similar — is probably the best job for you. However, from what you say about it, I’m not sure you feel it’s “really you”. If you don’t, that’s a real problem. Are you planning to post more about your feelings and thoughts towards teaching? I’d be interested in anything you have to say on that.

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    • That makes sense to me logically, but I tend to be an emotional person and so doubt has a way of changing my perspectives. There are parts I love about teaching, and parts I really don’t feel mesh with me. I think it will come up in my writing because it’s become such a huge part of my life. Going forward I think I will continue to teach, but no longer in the traditional public school setting.

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